[x.I.AM.DEPRESSED.x]
"Depression is not sobbing and crying and giving vent, it is plain and simple reduction of feeling...People who keep stiff upper lips find that it's damn hard to smile."
-Judith Guest
[x.The.Test.x]One of my acquaintances posted on a forum this internet site which is like
a personality test. Due to curiosity, I tried it and I was surprised how it was
asccurate to what I was feeling. This website uses this thing which they call
"colorgenics" to identify what your feeling, you personality, and such.
It starts when they let you pick a cube with a specific color. I think
you start out with 8 colors and you choose the cubes from what you think
which cube has the greatest harmony to the least. So after I took
the test, the result of it all was this:
Name: Kris
Date: 11/22/2008
Colorgenics Number: 46351207
It would appear that at this particular time of your life you are going through a tough time. You are feeling (or have recently felt) miserable and depressed and perhaps you are still feeling that way. Maybe all the trials and tribulations just aren't worth it. Your present anxieties could have been associated with either your 'private' or 'business' life - whatever ... what you really need at this time is to get away from it all, maybe a vacation - alone, or better still, perhaps with someone that you know really cares for you, someone who appreciates you - not for what you have but for who you are. A short vacation may be all you need to afford you the time to recover and to get back to your normal vital self.
You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!
It is amazing that you yourself believe that old 'adage' that you are a misunderstood person - and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that you feel the need to conform to society in general - but this situation leaves you 'cold' knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment, you seem to be just playing along.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!
Anyway I just wanted to share this. Perhaps this may shed some light in
what I'm hiding.
[x.End.x]Its hard to fake a smile when
anguish runs down your veins all the time. Labels: depressed, test
